I wanna disappear from my life so bad nobody even knows who I am anymore I’ve changed my looks and my name I don’t understand why I feel the need to keep running I don’t even have a reason to run anymore yet I’m still running away from my life I feel so lonely but I wanna be alone I don’t even understand myself anymore I don’t even make sense am I even real anymore sometimes I think I’m dead maybe.. I am dead? Is the world is hell? I don’t believe in hell… what am I doing in my life I have no kids no family what is the point anymore I’m too much of a p**** to even try to take my own life I don’t have much to live for but I’m scared cause of the unknown after death.. I hate my mom and her mom and her moms mom I hate all moms and I hate all dads I hate everyone tbh but the person I hate the most is me why did I let myself become this way why did I let myself get taken advantaged of so much why do I eat or breathe or live why why why why why ugh I need to get away but where if there is a god please tell me what to do.. who am I kidding he wont answer my prayers