I’m not really ashamed of it per se but I probably wouldn’t tell anyone about it and I know it’ll never happen anyway. I’m a bi female not super into guys once in a while kinda thing and my girlfriend is lesbian and 8 years younger than me. (I’m 27) She’s never been with a guy and has zero interest in them and maybe it has something to do with her being so much younger than me but sometimes I think about a guy having s** with her like on top of her from behind his cute little b*** cheeks clenching and his balls bouncing against her as he thrusts his p**** inside her biting her neck rough hands groping her breasts that I love sucking on grunting as he plants his seed inside her while she makes moans that sound different from the ones she makes when I go down on her and afterwards I lick him clean and then s*** his s**** out of her v***** and it turns me on so much. I don’t know why I have this kink maybe it’s something to do with her losing her virginity. She’s kinda grossed out that I’ve had s** with men and once I was telling her about some guy she knows that I went out with I could tell it was weirding her out and when she asked if I hooked up with him and when I told her I only gave him a b****** she was like “ewww that’s worse” and I made the mistake of telling her that I love doing that which really grossed her out so we just dropped the subject. She’s a little judgemental about s** because she was raised as a born again Christian and even though she’s gay she’s pretty conservative and we got into an argument once because she let it slip that she thinks I’m promiscuous because I’m bi and I told her that promiscuity makes me promiscuous (I don’t cheat) and not my bisexuality and that if I was straight or lesbian I would be f****** just as many guys or girls which grossed her out too. Sometimes I wonder why I’m with her because she’s so stodgy and stuck up (maybe that’s part of it) but she’s 19 and has a killer body that she lets me do pretty much anything to now that I taught her how to use it. I think part of my fantasy is revenge for the way she is but obviously I can never tell her about it. Just the thought of some dude coming up behind her and putting his hands on her t*** makes me wet.