So, when I was 12 I always wanted to have s** with a K-pop idol, Jin..

I fantasized about him literally f****** me so hard.

I actually have thought about storylines that would make sense to him being so hard on me.

I’ve only never told anyone..

I’m still an a.r.m.y (the fandom name of BTS)

But he’s almost 11 yrs older than me, making it kinda sick for me to think that way, making him low key a p********..

I had gotten to the point that I started touching myself.

I couldn’t resist it, but I still feel bad for thinking that way abt him..

He is 1.80/6,00 tall (I think).

And I was 1,42/4,8

So, it was hot to me, that a much taller man did.. Horrible things to me..

I had wild Wild fantasies.

Some where b***
Some where torture
Some where r*** (not rlly actually)

My mind was so-
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Idek wtf my brain was thinking at that point.. I’m seriously ashamed for sexualizing Jin ☹