Over the past 24 hours I have been contemplating with my wanting a woman in my life so bad that I practically gave into m*********** in order to keep my wild emotions in check. It is not easy being single and searching for someone that is willing to give time and love to you. During the last two nights I fantasized about having a s***** romance with one of my female friends, but every so often I would end up changing to a different woman and I would be in bed stimulating myself until 9 in the morning. I want to have a loving relationship with a woman as well as satisfy my s** appeal, and I can not do that by sitting in front of a monitor late in night and jerking around. I need to re-direct my energy to finding a woman and not resolve to keeping myself locked in all night. I have to find someone! I need a woman in my life!