I really need some honest feedback please. I truly don’t understand why I have these feelings; so please be helpful & help me understand this fantasy/ experiences ok, I love women, & I’m straight but the thought of women getting c** really turns me on. I mean when they get a lot of c**! It makes me really wanna know what it’s like to be a girl & What they feel like getting c**. I think gangbangs & b****** are extremely hot! I can’t help but wonder what they feel like so I fantasize what it would be like being a girl getting gangbanged and having to take a lot of c** especially orally, But here’s the thing. The real fantasy is that I think about a girl having s** with me while teaching me how to be a c** s***. She would dress me up and truly make me feel like a girl, skirt, bra, p******, maxi pad, fake t*** that feel realistic, leggings, wig, makeup, perfume etc. the more realistic the better. I’ve dressed up before and I honestly look very hot, kinda hard to believe but I really felt like a girl. I’ve even made myself c** so hard & so much the aftermath mad me look like a c** s*** Anyways, I fantasize that she would teach me how to give a b****** & if I didn’t do it right if I didn’t she’d make me do it again until I did. I fantasize about her getting gangbanged and getting several loads of c** on her p**** then making me lick her clean. Basically, oh, you like felling like a girl & you like c**, then come here & take it, At times in the past I have been with someone who came home with c** all over them and she made me smell it & look at as she told me how she got it while having s** with her. She pushed my face into her c** covered t*** & I couldn’t help but taste the c** while f****** her, it was almost like some sort of punishment.. I visually saw it, I was forced to smell & taste it so I guess I have a c** fetish but now I only wanna feel like a girl when doing it. Maybe it’s the humiliation that gets me off, maxi pads are a massive turn on, as they press against me I sometimes put a small v******* under the adhesive because it won’t move as I’m fantasizing about everything. I just lay there and think until I c**. There was another girl before who I did this with and when we had s** I would c** she reached down as I was C****** I came in her hand then she forced it into my mouth then we continued to have s**! It was extremely hot, I would c** again & again! They all seem to get very turned on by this fantasy & I always find myself wanting more. What should I do, why do I feel these fantasies & like them so much? They really excite me but I really want a woman involved and her to be the only one to make me c** over it. Please give good feedback… thank you