I’m a 25 years old man in a 8 years relationship with a woman of the same age. We met in high school and have been dating so far. It’s nice. It’s nice that there’s someone to tell whatever you want to tell. Well, not whatever and that’s what brings me here.

I have a k**** fantasy. Maybe a pretty romantic one in certain sense. I would like do love with an older woman. But not just that. I want to be a s***** object for her and I want that she also knows that she an s***** object for me. But even more than that: she wants because she thinks I’m beautiful and young; I want her because she is beautiful and older. She knows that this is my fantasy and also knows that she is the perfect person to fulfill my desire. I’m perfect enough for her desire too.

Now moving to a specific person of my relationship circle. My 40 years old or more professor. What makes it worse is that she is my ethics professor – what a irony. She is short (1,50m), nice body (a little belly to bit), curly and self cut hair (she has her own style which makes my fantasy go up), not long hair (a bit below of shoulders), dress nicely (also has a style of her own which is lovely. She’s not that beautiful, but is charming and I simply love her way of being: the way she talks, thinks about stuff, being silly sometimes. I would love if she was able to fulfill my desire – she is the one.
She gave me rides in her car sometimes. We talked a lot about the course and things. Nothing that made me think that she’s into something with me (she thinks that my hair is beautiful – I also said her hair is beautiful-, but this doesn’t count). However… I remember one silly special day. Here where I live we usually give a kiss in the cheek of women when we are saying goodbye or hello. One of this rides I was about to say goodbye with a kiss and I made a strange move: I gently put my hand on the other side of her face and kissed her cheek. That was heartstopping. I was think: “what the hell I just did?!”. It’s pretty silly, doesn’t mean so much, but wow… I would love if she had drived me to her house where she lives alone. Gentle kisses on the lips and the body – whatever pleases her, we doubting if it’s right or wrong but still removing the clothes of each other, the frictioning of our bodies, reciprocal carnal and forbidden desire of both being fulfilled. This would be awesome.

The whole problem is I have a girlfriend and to fulfill this desire (be it my professor or not) I have to be young. I’m already 25 (with thirty face) and still have time to complete this desire but no that much. It drives me nuts!