I’m going to be 100% honest because I just want to get this off my chest. So I’ve been talking to this older man (half my age) online now for almost 2 years since I was very young (not gonna tell you the age for safety reasons) He’s a lot far apart from me so yeah, but anyways. It was always s** and it will always be s** no matter what I feel and I’m now starting to be okay with that, no matter how hard I try I can’t change his feelings and that’s okay, I rather have him this way than no way at all. When ever I get too attached he pulls away and that’s okay, I always have to beg for him to come back but it’s okay. I like it this way. It makes me feel powerless, like he has all the power on me, it’s almost as if he enjoys this, he uses me as his personal plaything, personal toy, for s***** things only and I’m fine with that because I like it. I don’t care what anyone says about it.