My mom is dead a couple of years ago and I never fantasized her while I jerked off since then. But I used to do it a hell lot when she was alive which I suddenly start missing. I mean no offense to her. I just admire her s******** and visualizing her do things to me or vice versa makes me harder than ever. What do you think guys? Should I f*** everything else and close my eyes think of her and j******* or just never do this again?