I want to be raped bad, it’s very taboo but still, I want a man to f*** me no matter how loud I scream and no matter how much I beg him to stop, the man I want to r*** me the most is my older sisters boyfriend. I see him every week for dinner and when it’s just us two, he pins me to the wall by my neck and and just dry humps me and makes me feel his hard c***. Shoving his tongue down my throat, I know it’s so wrong but I can’t help but to think about it when I m*********. Is this a bad thought to have as a girl?