I am bicurious and I am in love with my straight friend. I think about him everyday and everynight before I go to sleep. I don’t want any s***** contacts, all i want is to hug him, to rest my head on his shoulder and cry. Cry a lot. We had a major fight and since then he doesn’t talk to me like before. I wanna see his face. I wanna smile and laugh with him. I wanna be with him. He has a gf and now he hardly talks to me. I wish he knew that i love him. Its been a year like this and now its overwhelming. I don’t wanna lose him as a friend, I know how much that hurts during our fight. Oh god just let him know that His smile comes before mine. That someone near him loves him madly. It hurts…a lot.