sometimes i feel like every time one of the two of us gives up on the other, you fukin’ get slung at the wall, and harder each time. it’s happened so many times it feels unnatural. it’s like the universe is forcing two apathetic people to notice each other, and that we need to be together for some reason, needing to accomplish at least that one thing and then perhaps be done and over with it. i know i love you, do you love me? i’m perfectly happy to go about my life without you in it. i do get to where i don’t check up on you, then some small inconspicuous thing makes me feel nostalgic and so i do check up on you because why not. ? you seem to me to be someone who can use someone like me in your corner, is why i do it. i’m sure someday i’ll see the answer. it’s the usual way the world works and so that’s the only reason i do it love.