if i could get married, and be a stay-at-home partner, i would. 100%, i f****** would.
i want to make someone happy, but i’m scared that they’ll get sick of me, and cheat or leave… or do both.
i’m scared that others will judge me for not wanting to throw myself headfirst into a career.
i just want to live a simple life, and give myself to someone fully without having to be scared.
in a perfect dream world, i feel like i could do this… but not in the real world. here, i need to make something of myself unless i want to be judged. i need to keep walls up unless i want to be broken more by others. i need to realize that dream worlds don’t exist, and that i’ll probably never get married because of the fear behind it.