I’m being assessed for ADHD tomorrow and I’m so f****** scared. I don’t want the diagnosis even though I know that I have it. I’ll be nothing but a joke and it’ll give the bullies more of a reason to make fun of me. I’m hoping that by getting this diagnosis that it can be treated and that my “autism” will disappear. I’m not autistic as I can understand emotions, concepts and consequences. I’m just slow because of my mind constantly racing. If I can escape the criteria for autism, then I’ll finally be able to concentrate in lessons without the anxiety from being watched. I don’t need the help because I can do the work anyway only at a slower pace. They have even told me of my independence and of my symptoms being different to autists. I’ve got no special talents or social impairments, I’m just fidgety and on edge or tired and unmotivated. When they diagnosed me with autism, I wasn’t paying attention to the test. The doctors were s*** back there anyway so of course they’re just gonna put me with arrogant sped workers for last 8 years. Getting on meds will change all of this s***, especially because I’m on NoFap too. I’m gonna break away of this cycle of spoon-feeding and get into college and then Uni. I’ve already started setting boundaries with these guys believe it or not and they’ve backed off. If I can kill my ADHD, I’ll be so much more productive and independent.