I WOKE UP THIS MORNING FROM HAVING A LUCID DREAM ABOUT MAKING OUT WITH MY BROTHER

Big note here: My brother IRL is not the same person in the dream. IRL he’s severely autistic (the medical term, not the internet term people throw around). He can barely function on his own and barely speak. However, in the dream he was able to function like a “normal” human being and consent. Actually, he was the one coming onto ME.

We just started making out and doing k**** s***–and the kink I normally like, made me turned off at first–but I enjoyed it so much, I kept kissing him!

S*** was so disturbing and yet…YET I COULDN’T STOP DOING IT

I knew it was wrong. I remember telling him “Ok I’m gonna do this, but we’re not gonna date–” and then proceeded to kiss me.

To make things extra cringey I heard our mother talking on the phone as we were making out in our old house in the room we rarely used except for storage. (Also note, I live on my own in an apartment, my mom’s in senior housing and my brother’s in a group home. Haven’t seen him in years.)

When I woke up I just kept screaming in my head “WTF””WTF”WTF WHHHY” if I wasn’t so hungry I would’ve puked

Thank God my alarm woke me up so it didn’t get to level 2! Like I can’t have an explicit dream about my boyfriend but I do with my brother smh

mfw I’m thankful that my brother didn’t grow up normal so I wouldn’t have an i***** relationship with him