i always dream about my crushes. past, present, all of them (usually the most potent crushes).
i dream about what would’ve happened if we were together, what could happen if we saw each other again.
its really weird, but i sort of find comfort in it. i’ve never had a boyfriend, or any type of encounter that would lead to such. so when i dream (its never s*****, i always dream as if we are really close friends, like a best-friends relationship because that’s all i could ever hope for) i sort of feel better. like, if im having a bad day, when i fall asleep i’ll dream about one of my crushes, and how we are the best of friends and having so much fun on some type of outing. maybe my mind just attributes them to happy feelings and uses them in positive situations to make me feel better. that’s really crazy, but it’s all true.
now i can just hope for an actual best friend to look forward to in real life.