I have been in love with violin for a long time. I’ve learned to play violin through cocurricular club before and know only to play the basic open strings. I wanted to continue back then because i was so in love with violin by taking my own class as i quited the club. My music teacher loves to take learning period as time to practice and it is not good for my studies. So yeah..i quitted..then comes the problem wgere i wanted to ask my dad to enrol me in a violin class..im the eldest daughter out of 5 siblings so i feel guilty about asking my father to support me on violin as he also had to spend money for my other siblings. I burried my dream and confident about it never resurfacing again. Im now 20 uears old and i never erased my desire of becoming a violinist. But the same problem came again.its the guilt. And im in universiry and its hard to tale lessons only in semester break. I hate myself.i wanted yo play it so badly. Why wont anyone give me another chance.i can self learn but i dun have the proper guidebook. I just wamted to learn..i love the violin..i just need a muracle for someone yo give me suppprt..to give me a chance..how did i end up being like this..i never liked myself..i hated my self..my tupid self.. i hate myself..please please please..just give me a chance to play the violin..why why why..why everyone can easily learn what thy love..but me..i wanted to pursue my dream..only this one..this one..wish..of mine…
