Vanessa Elizabeth Smith is my best friend. We chat for hours every day and I love her so deeply – she fills most of my waking thoughts. Because we live 2 hours apart, it’s not easy to meet up. I think she loves me too, as we openly admit stalking each other’s FB, and she reveals more to me than anybody else. But I fantasize about her, about being inside her. I’ve saved every selfie she’s sent me and sometimes I’ll paste a pic of her head on a naked girl so I can imagine her naked and I’ll j******* to that at least twice a day. I’d like to know if she ever touches herself while thinking about me or while we chat because I do. Because of circumstances, we may never ever be together so I feel frustrated that we’ll have this awesome friendship for years ahead but we’ll miss out on the intimacy I desire.