Im a freshman and i just joined a sport/activity to become more social (which has been a success) . Ive met so many amazing people.
The other day My friend “Brian” (hes a sophomore and ive known him for almost 5 months now) tried to kiss me the other day. Although i wanted to kiss him back i rejected him because i have a boyfriend (john- john is my bestfriend for the past 4 years and we’ve been dating for 10 months and we have not kissed; hes really shy; hes a freshman). I honestly have a bit of a crush on Brian tho.
Lately things between me and John have felt different. We run out of things to talk about. The other day was a school dance and John asked me after telling me for months that he didnt want to go cause that is lame. he ended up going but not wanting to do anything at all. As the dance went on i hated standing there not knowing what to do so i went with some friends and turned up. my friend then brought their other friends and some were guys. One of the guys that were part of the group is my friend ( David- hes a senior; ive known him for about 6 months). we had fun. The dance was over and as i was saying bye to john, john was upset because he didnt like me leaving him. but its not my fault, for he didnt want to dance even though ive asked him many times throughout the dance. Right before I gave john a hug david comes out of no where and is like…. bro come here its important…. and he demands me to close my eyes so i do. As i stand with my eyes close he tilts me head upwards and kisses my forhead then whispers in my ear, ” you deserve it.”he hugged me and i opened my eyes and i left back down to john. john was ready to leave and he was being moody cause he didnt want to be there from the start.
Now im left stuck at 2am thinking about all three guys. Do i brake up with my boyfriend? ( this is not the first time he acts like this.) What do i do with David? Do I date Brian if i brake up with my boyfriend? The one thing holding me back is… Me and john have been bestfriends for the longest. I feel if we brake up… it will be like we see eachothers face but try not to remember the memories. I feel awful!