I have had history of Alcoholism and i am a young guy of 26 and i have been clean and sober for over two and a half years. I believe in place of alcohol i was getting an escape of using escorts from online sites. I had been doing this in a desperate need of getting out of my self, and after an act i seemed to ok for a while. I would do it and say OMG WTF did i just do. I felt morally bankrupt but i still persisted on despite how it made me feel. I have a delusion sense of what will make me feel better, escorts of all things. I had all good experiences (well no harmful experiences). Until the day before yesterday. I had not used an e***** in a long time for me over 3-4 months it wasn’t even on my mind at all. All of a sudden i felt this urge and very uncomfortable feelings associated with it. So as usual, I feel guilty even typing the website in. I find a girl that looks ok, then i go meet up with her i hand her the donation and she proceeds to be very controlling and got a really weird vibe about everything. I got uncomfortable and i said that i wanted my money back, she said no you already booked me. I said you better give me my money back she had not even done anything. quicker than i could get the next word out of my mouth she said do you want a problem? Do you want to get sprayed with mace? I am calling my friend. I am not a confrontational person and wanted nothing to do with that so out of fear i left. As i was walking out a guy was walking towards the door but i was away far enough to feel comfortable to say i just got ripped off! and he walks over to me and was like i can go see….then he got a phone call picked up and walked away. I felt good to be lucky enough to not be maced and or shot beat up robbed, other than the donation quote on quote. I guess i dont like the feeling of being robbed so i tried to scare her saying i got it on camera and i called the cops and what a worthless theifing w**** she was. All not in my charater at all…I feel horrible inside from the entire event so to speak and i couldnt tell anyone else and was boiling inside. I feel a large sum of regret and guilt and yet i say to my self ill never do that again i am lucky to not have any uncureable std’s and still be OK.