I am so unhappy with my life, I want to do so many things but knowing I’m trapped here in this one place and with a failure of a life makes me wish I was dead so at least I wouldn’t have to feel how much I have failed and how little I actually like my life. Nothing makes me happy, the routine of going to work, coming home, and sleeping is killing me. The love of my boyfriend that once made me happier and able to tolerate those other things isn’t here anymore now that he is so distant. I feel all alone and I just wish I could stop feeling this way all the time, I want so badly to feel like I have done something with my life but the truth is I haven’t. I think about killing myself everyday, and what’s worse is I almost do it. When I’m driving I think about just crashing my car into a tree, I don’t even care what death is like as long as I don’t have to feel this unhappy anymore.
