I hate my sisters. This isn’t something spontaneous. They didn’t do something slightly annoying and I got butthurt and whined to the internet about it. It’s real, genuine hatred that I don’t think will ever go away. My sisters are 3 and 5 years old. Every goddamn thing they do annoys me in some way. The obnoxious baby shows they watch, the noises they make, them constantly interrupting my alone time, even their voices just annoy me. I realize that they’re young and that they can’t help most of the things they do. I know they’re just little girls and that hating them is probably a despicable, horrible thing to do but I just hate them. I’ve tried to sit down and literally just think about them, trying to pick and prod and find things I like about them, but I can’t. Every single thing they do irritates me and I can’t find a single positive thought about them. I wish I could change, I want to change, I’ve tried to change but I can’t. I just can’t stop hating them. I’m honestly scared of what I’ll do if I can’t find a way to calm my anger towards them. It’s gotten to the point where I literally shake and seethe in anger when they’re near me. I’m just scared that one day I’ll do something awful like assault or kill one of them. I want the hate to stop, but I don’t know how. I don’t know how to love my own little sisters and I’m an awful f****** person.