I’m 25 and a complete loser in every way.

I have a massive phobia of failure combined with social anxiety.

So I am bad with people and I am afraid of failure.

If I suspect I will fail at something I give up right away. At the first big hurdle I give up. I’ve been doing this all my life.

My family tries to get me to stop but they cant. Probably nothing can be done for me.

I refuse to taste failure so I will keep giving up. Someone tried that reverse psychology on me and said “didnt you already fail” but that doesn’t count since I gave up. I didnt push harder and fail. I gave up on the spot. Right at the first speed bump.

Part of the reason I am bad with people is because I’ve no accomplishments so I feel inferior and hate being asked personal questions. I’m also paranoid and very defensive.

It’s a vicious circle really. I wish I could have the courage to kill myself but I dont feel brave enough. The idea that I will feel any sort of pain at all scares me. Or what if I fail and I end up alive and mangled and worse off?

So really I’m trapped.