When I was in first grade my teacher told me I was retarded and not worth her time. I spent much of my life believing that, and never tried very hard. My own lax approach to life led me… nowhere. I’m 46 now and on my second marriage. I have two kids from my first wife. My son is great. He is everything I wish I had been as a kid. My daughter is like me. For her sake I wish she hadn’t been born. I love her, but I don’t know how she’s going to make it. No matter how I encourage her and tell her how beautiful and talented she is (she’s an amazing singer and actor). I do believe she is intelligent, but I totally fail when trying to get her to believe it.
My first wife divorced me after 16 years, saying she wanted “to explore other options.” Honestly, I don’t know why she married me to start with. I’m such a f****** loser. Surely she could see it back then.
My current wife and I just had our 5th anniversary. She deserves so much better. No matter how I try, I screw everything up. But she’s got something my first wife didn’t… LOYALTY. She promised “’til death,” and she’ll keep her word. I think about killing myself to set her free, but I’m too much of a coward.