So I’m a 27 year old guy. Always had an attraction to teenage girls 12 and up. Not the type of guy to abuse and r*** and stuff like that, though.

2 years ago I met a (then) 13 year old girl online. We chatted, we connected, we bonded. Eventually the topic of s** came up. She was a virgin, never kissed, had never even thought about having s**. Yet as time went on, the questions kept coming and her interest in s** (and me) grew. For a while she was in love with me, though we both knew a relationship like that would never work, so we never pursued it.

A few weeks later we decided to meet up in person. We had a fun day, talked together and as the s***** tension grew she worked up the courage to join me in the back of my car. When time ran out and she had to go home, her curiosity gave in and she allowed me to be her first kiss. That was the first of many encounters on that backseat which went progressively further each time until pants started to come off and I was the first to touch her in such an intimate way.

By the time she was 14 we had a pretty solid bond. Solid enough for her to decide she wanted to lose her virginity to me, which she did in a cozy hotel room where we spent the night together. We’ve had s** in the car and hotels room on many occasions since then and she has never regretted it once. And we’ve never been caught.

She’s 15 now, slowly growing up. Our feelings of being in love have since then been replaced with a strange form of fatherly/daughterly love, while continuing to enjoy our s***** encounters. We enjoy our time together immensely, but wouldn’t ever want to have relationship together. It’s just not that kind of love anymore.

Pretty big stuff right? But all of that isn’t even my confession. I’ve enjoyed every single second I’ve spent with her so far, not regretting a thing. There’s only one problem which I can’t possibly get out off.

I’ve had a girlfriend all this time. Ever since I met the girl when she was 13 until this day I’ve been in the same dedicated relationship with another girl who’s now 21. My girlfriend doesn’t know about the other girl. But what’s probably worse is that the 15 year old girl doesn’t know about my girlfriend. She thinks I’m single and has actually said multiple times that should either of us ever get into a relationship, we wouldn’t be able to see each other anymore. If she ever found out I’ve had a girlfriend all this time I don’t know what would happen. It would probably break her in a really bad way, never trusting anyone again and I would probably never forgive myself for it.

But I’m in too deep. I don’t want to lose either my girlfriend or my close friend. And yet I stand to lose both (and more) if I mess this up in the future. There’s no clean way out of this anymore. At some point someone is going to get hurt and I’m at a crossroads, having to decide who is going to catch the brunt of that pain down the line. Well, you get the idea.

So that’s my confession. Please don’t bother commenting about how much of a horrible person I am. Trust me, I already know. It just feels good to get this s*** off my chest.