I’m a mid-30’s male who has way more than i deserve in life, and i’m too lazy to appreciate it. What do I mean by that? Well, let me start by saying that I make close to $200k a year. How did I get here? I didn’t go to college and I really don’t fancy myself on being that smart, but I found out how to hustle my job when I was in my 20’s. I discovered the secret to successfully making people think I’m a harder worker than I really am, and that led to promotions, which led to more money, which led to a job change, which led to even more money. Fast-forward 15 years and my salary has gone from $48,000/yr in 2001 to $150,000/yr with a $25,000 bonus a year and stock options that put me closer to $200k in 2014.
With this money came free will for me to do whatever the f*** I want. I went through a drug phase where I loaded up on weed and cocaine regularly, but that’s not my guilt. Sometime around 2002 I discovered prostitution on the Internet. Yes, e***** sites. Any time I had spare cash I would find a w**** for $150 on one of these sites and pay them a visit. I had a girlfriend, and she found out and left me. As my pay increased over the years, so did my desire to visit these whores. I have probably spent close to $30,000 on whores in the past 12 years, and now that i’m making more money than ever, i’m paying these whores a visit at least twice a month without flinching.
The guilty part? I have a girlfriend. She is the love of my life. We have been together over 5 years and I cannot imagine my life without her. She truly is one of the best things that has happened to me and I love her dearly, however I cannot crack this stupid s***** habit. She has no clue I visit whores so regularly. Nobody knows except my best friend, and as far as he’s concerned I haven’t seen a w**** since I met my love.
It’s the worst feeling in the world to know I could lose my girlfriend at any moment because I forgot to clear my browser cache, or I came home smelling like perfume and s** not expecting her to be home yet, or I catch a nasty disease and pass it on to her.
Anyways, i really needed to get this off my chest, and since my girlfriend isn’t home tonight I will probably go see a w**** at the local massage parlor.