I'm gay and no one else knows. I have not trusted a single soul this major secret. I don't want to confess that I am gay because I want to believe that it

12 years

171 Views

I’m gay and no one else knows. I have not trusted a single soul this major secret. I don’t want to confess that I am gay because I want to believe that it isn’t true. I want to believe that my s***** preference is nothing and that I will be able to live a normal life. I want to be like every other guy and find a nice girl, get married, have kids, grow old with my wife and look after my grandchildren. Sadly, I can’t have that. The only way I can have a kid is through adoption or having a surrogate mother to birth my child. I hate that! I hate that I can’t be normal like everyone else. It’s weird to think about being in a relationship with a guy because that’s not normal. Although, I have had many s***** feelings for different guys, I never felt anything beyond s**. As you can tell, I desire greatly to fit in. I don’t understand why God had to make me this way and thus force me into a life of confusion, anger, and loneliness. I think about life as being openly gay, and although it sounds great to not have to hide who I truly am, I know that it will be a life filled with others not accepting me, others hating me, and others disapproving me for who I am. I guess I will just have to learn to not give a s*** about what other people think about me. This mindset is harder to achieve than what it sounds, especially when homosexuals are constantly being ridiculed of.

New Confession

Like being naked outside during hot weather. It’s natural, primal, exciting. And my peenis points up.

Related Confessions

I have a deep hate for the self help industry because it’s like its own type of religion…if you just believe and work hard enough, you’ll go to success heaven. I fell for it hard for awhile in the early 2000’s with my attention and money until I finally started opening my eyes to the patterns of BS. One of the patterns I started noticing were wealthy successful people in interviews talk about their similar “homeless to billionaire” origin stories that put them in a light of how hard they worked and scraped to get to where they are now, but almost nothing about the actual steps in between. Step 1: had nothing. Step 2: worked hard. Step 3: billionaire! It drove me nuts because I always ended up with the thought “but how did you actually get there?” They sell the idea of success because everybody loves the rags to riches story and it wouldn’t be so inspiring if they were thoroughly honest about what was available to them that isn’t for most people.