I was s******* abused as a child but its no excuse for some of the things I did. I commited b********** with sheep for a period of a year when I was 15. I was also obsessed with womens underwear and hoarded it. Masterbated into a used condom. I used to harbour fantasises about drugging and abducting women. Thankfully I never did that. Got masturbated by a prostitute 10 years later. Kissed one just awhile back. I have kicked most of these things especially the b**********. I just have a lot of guilt.