Its been a while since I last thought about taking my life, but today I thought about it. I thought about what a waste my life is and how I haven’t done anything. I wanted to take away that feeling. I don’t really care what happens when we die. heaven/hell, another life, nothing. All I know is that I wont be here, feeling like this. Sometimes I feel like it would make me happy if something changed in my life but that just it. I have changed things and it hasn’t helped. My boyfriend makes me happy but it comes with that fear of rejection from him. Maybe I would be happier on my own without that fear.