I have a boyfriend and he’s an amazing guy. It’s a long distance relationship. I have a friend who is s******* attracted to me and has been wanting to have s** with me for over a year. Last night I went to his house to spend some time with him because he said he was lonely. He has done the same for me in the past. So, we are laying in his bed cuddling like lovers, and he gets on top of me. He starts rubbing my c*** and he asks if I’m getting wet. I whisper, “yes” in his ear and he rips my p****** off along with my other clothes. He undoes his pants and takes his shirt off and he pushes himself inside me. Immediately, he grabs my legs and pushes them, by the knee, up to my shoulders. He starts pounding me harder and harder and he tells me, “You’re so f****** tight. I love your wet p****.” He slows down and goes deeper. I couldn’t help but say his name because I knew that I had been waiting for this. Then, he stops completely. He gets off of me and tells me that he came inside me. He lays next to me and pulls me closer and we eventually fall asleep. I want to punch myself in the face with a cactus because I know that deep in my mind, I wish it was my boyfriend.