You’re not the first boy to have come up to me in hopes of being more than friends and certainly not the only one to have received ‘no’ as an answer. I guess we’re still close friends (?) but as much as I hate to admit it, I’m feeling jealous.
I often tell everyone who thinks we’re together that we’re merely ‘friends’ and it’s the brother-sister kind of relationship. But lately I feel this sense of jealousy whenever I see you talking to other girls. I know I’m not supposed to care but.. it really s**** and I can’t help it.
We’re going to part ways soon and I know (well at least, HOPE) that all this is just temporary. But so often I’ve caught myself trying to take a glimpse of you, and then realizing it yet no knowing why. I’m not going to tell you the truth because a) it’s my ego and b) it seems ludicrous to me to confess to you after rejecting you.
No matter how close I claim to be with you, I still feel awkward and shy around you, as if.. as if we were never even ‘friends’.. but I know well enough that there are better girls out there for you, really. After all, that’s the reason I held onto when I so ‘coldly’ rejected your love.
I’m not someone like this, why am I feeling all this emotions?
