Hello everyone or who ever wants to read my story.
My name is Hayley lee I am 16 yrs old,
I live with my mum and dad and my 18 year old half sister, shakira.

To be honest nobody really likes me, I hate my life and sometimes wish I was never born, nobody understands.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me could it be depression or what?
When I was really young my uncle would touch me all over, and would make me touch him, he would finger me and ask if it felt nice I was scared so of course I said yes, he made me give him hand, I was a young a 5-6 but it all stopped when I was about 10 🙂
He would tell my parents I was bad and naughty, and being mean to people,
But one thing that scears me the most I saw him do it to shakira I was really little to maybe even a toddler, I was sitting on the cough across from them, but that night at him house in the room my sister was hugging me saying it was going to be ok.

To this day I haven’t told no one it’s happened more then once to me by him, I haven’t even talked to my shakira about it, nor have I told my parents, never have and never will, they are close with him, I am not, this stuff has happened about 10+ times, but I’m sceard because I don’t reamber the first time he did it to me, I was a toddler reambering that, so could have I been a tiny useless baby, it makes me wanna cry I was a little baby.

I’m not close with my dad, nor my mum it was my mums brother Ron, ill never tell my parents, if your reading this it ain’t easy to tell them, it never will so that’s why I’m not saying nothing.

My aunty used to pick on me and call me names like, your a stupid c***, blubber, fatty and you get it a lot more stuff to. 🙁

My cousins hate me they call me names say things like lose weight fatty, ugly b**** it makes me cry when I’m alone.

I first cut my self last year when my cousin he’s older and a male he said something mean about my weight, you may think it stupid or I’m attention seeking but trust me I’m not because if I was I would be telling people “hey look I cut.”
About a month ago my friends girlfriend started picking on me saying I’m ugly fat and embarrassing so I cut myself on my leg called “PERFECT!” So every time I wake up have a shower get dressed I can see the word perfect, and know I’m not perfect never will be and that nobody’s perfect.

I heard the saying you we’re put on earth for a reason yeah no I wasn’t, if that was so look at me I’m stupid and worthless, I hate myself and do does everybody else I’m perfedic, it true.

People reading this I bet your skinny pretty got alot of friends and everybody likes you, but nobody likes me, what is wrong with me I’m nice, I’m not perfect but please give us a chance, people don’t pick on anyone because of there appearance please I’m begging you, I hate my life and I wish I was dead, I’m crying right now telling you about me.

I hate looking in the mirror, I’m self conscious I reckon I’m fat ugly and stupid, please don’t call me attention seeking because I’m not I hate life and myself.

I’m sorry this was long, but forgive me ,but what can I Change so people like me?

P.S nobody is perfect reamber that please don’t pick on anyone.
But what everyone’s said about me I carnt velive I’m still standing, I thought about killing myself, the bullying has gotten worst, worse then every I cry every night to sleep, I hate myself, I don’t know how to last of stay stong no more, what em I ment to do, sit there and take it all, get picked on everyday or what??
I’m gonna try and lose weight to help md a bit.

P.SS – if I do get a new start on life lose weight, and stuff I promise ill never and I mean it never pick on anybody I promise! 🙂
I’m gonna start a diet lose weight and look a bit better, but I promise ill be nice to people 🙂