i've been in a relationship for almost 2 1/2 years, and sometimes i think i will never truly, truly be in love with anyone but the girl who broke my heart

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i’ve been in a relationship for almost 2 1/2 years, and sometimes i think i will never truly, truly be in love with anyone but the girl who broke my heart over and over, who never really loved me, but whose face shows up in my dreams all the time. i left her in a figurative cloud of dust, and it’s the best choice i ever made, but the addiction is like heroin. one image, one memory sets me off, and i think i may never feel like i felt with her. and i feel so guilty and terrible even though i love my current partner so much. it’s just different. and it kills me.

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So, one time I told my mom that I wanna buy a lollipop, I was 17 that time. My step brother then asked if he could come my mom and I agreed. Me and my step brother let’s just call him Daniel. Daniel the both of went out to buy. We bought a few things lollies and he said he wanted a beer, so I bought one for him. But on the way home walking he asked saying “I have a lollipop why would you buy one?” I looked confused. But I just said I like the strawberry flavored more. he then asked if we could go somewhere for awhile, I agreed cuz’ why not, The house is boring anyway. We went to this secluded area it’s dim but not to dark. No person is walking at that time because it’s night a bit late. We sat down on the bench right beside each other. around probably 5 minutes passed, he took my hand and hovered at top of his “DIH’ it was hard, very hard. my hand is not inside yet. He spoke “you make me this hard everyday.” mind you he was 22 at that time. I sat down still, I didn’t move one bit and just let him do what he wants to. then, he puts my hand inside and helped me stroke his “Dih” I stroked it, he started moaning softly minutes passed like that, he spoke after “Can you s*** for me?” I nodded, because what can I do? I sucked his dih and he exploded on my mouth. I thought it was done and he told me to swallow so I did. after that we didn’t tell mom nor dad it’s our little secret. that was 6 months ago, and now we both sometimes do it when we are alone.

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I haven’t cheated on my husband since he got me pregnant 18 years ago. My son brought home his best friend Nigel the first time when they were in sixth grade, he saw me get out of the hot tube n***. They will be in college next year so we celebrated their high school graduation here, after alcohol me and my husband were super drunk. My son Joey and Nigel helped us up to our bedroom, my husband passed out. Nigel said he was in love with me since he was 12 then kissed me on the lips. Joey said “If you want to do him it’s okay with me mom.”. Nigel sucked my n******, fingered me and put my hand on his big c0ck. I didn’t pay attention to Joey but Joey was hot and I wanted him inside me. I said turn the lights off Joey, he did then cam back to kiss me. I love kissing guys, when I laid back his kissing was more passionate and his fingers went deep inside me. I spread wide so he would phuck me, he did that very hard and fast c****** inside me in a few minutes. He got of of me and said sorry mom but his c*** was replaced by Nigel’s. I then knew my son had just balled me, it made it way easier to c** before Nigel nutted inside me. When he got off of me I asked Joey to come back and do me again. He said “Are you sure momma?”. I said “Yes Joey I want you and Nigel to breed me.”. They didn’t know I was not on the pill any longer and still fertile. I had Jenny 9 months later, my husband said he was awake pretending to sleep watching me phuck our son and his friend.