I loved you even after our divorce, and the day that I found out, on line, that you had been dead for 4 years I wanted to die myself. I felt like the loneliest person in the world and I love you still. Even after everything, I did what you wanted me to do and I took care of our little girl, who grew up with other people and turned out to be the world’s most self centered little b****, I did it for you. I am so so sorry that I wasn’t there for you when you died alone. I would have been, all you had to do was call me. I will see you again one day, but every day I am reminded of you and it is so hard not to fall to the ground and scream.
