I feel like I went into things too fast sometimes. I love my boyfriend, but I’m also borderline not feeling anything with him anymore. He proposed to me a long time ago, and we’ve only been together a year and a half. It’s ridiculous and I regret it so much. Love is not an open door and you shouldn’t marry the first man you meet (Ahem…Frozen…) Anyway, I cheated on him with a very good friend of mine. I love this man like no other, but I’m confused if it’s just because I’m in a bad state of mind right now. I slept with him multiple times in the past and recently. And on some days I feel super bad about it, and other times I don’t. The thing is, everyone f****** hates him except me. I’m the only one who does not hate him. I feel like I’m being tested right now. Do I follow my heart and go with this man? Or do I stay on the safe side and live a boring and loveless life? The answer seems clear in theory, but under the circumstances of money and college, things just aren’t working out for me right now.
