I’m engaged. Been together 9 months. I have an 8mo old son from a previous relationship. My fiancé took on the father role almost immediately and I couldn’t be more thankful. But, I recently became friends with a married man. Even more recently, I slept with this man. We became close quick and admitted that feelings were developing. I haven’t felt guilty for this. Our affair however is over now, almost as quick as it began. This ending is what is killing me. I knew better. Most women get hurt when they fall for married men. I knew he’d never leave his wife. But now I’m still engaged to my fiancé when I have stronger feelings for this unattainable man. My fiancé is no longer a turn on. I force myself to make out with him and f*** him. I’m trying so hard to mask my sadness blaming it on family or other friends irritating me. I want so badly to get over the married man and to be in love with my fiancé.
