Once last year in my first year of high school I liked an asian guy and I told my best friend at school that I liked him she also said she liked so we promised each other that who ever he liked we would still be friends, in the end he picked her because at the time she was the one who was better looking and she was really shy and was his type unlike me who was ugly and loud 🙁 my friend told him after when I was crying that day and he saw and after they broke up a week later he started to play with my feelings for at least 2 to 3 months at this time I still liked him but I was going out with who was once a friend of mine from primary school half way through my realtionship with my boyfriend I started to do something I shouldn’t have been doing I ended up breaking up with my boyfriend thinking I wasn’t worth him after doing that but 2 weeks later we got back together all the while I was still being played with by my crush i ended up being dumped by my boyfriend because I was sucicidal and “insulted” his mother who was the one who insulted me all I did was stick up for myself. I feel guilty about what I did while I was still with my boyfriend and he now hates me and were in the same classes I’m saying all this because maybe one day he might see it or maybe one day he will forgive me and there will be proof that these are my feelings