I have this weird feeling inside of me that no one likes me, and that I am not good enough for the people I am friends with. My friends are perfect, they are smart, their have great personalities, they are easy to talk to, they are outgoing, the listen could go on forever… unfortunately, I am the one exception. I’m quiet, not very outgoing, I don’t stick up for myself, I hate arguing, and it takes me a while to get to know people, but I do dedicate myself and to my friends. But I just get such a vibe that my friends don’t like me as much as I like them, because I feel like I’m always the one who starts conversations with them, but whenever they start conversations I’m not really a part of them. They don’t ever act mad at me and they always listen to what I have to say and give input, but I just don’t think that they would take interest in me if I didn’t start all the conversations. This past week, I stayed quiet and didn’t start any conversations or text them, just to see who would try to talk to me at their own will. However, over the period of 5 days I only got one text from one person, and it wasn’t even from my closest friend.

Am I crazy for doing this? I feel like I’m an awful person for even thinking of this. I just feel like I’m not good enough for my friends or something, even though I have similar interests and they are nice to me. I know I’m overthinking too much but I can’t shake this feeling. Am I insane?