I’m 17 and 2 months pregnant. I never wanted to go through pregnancy and birth, even later in my life, and in my state you need a parent’s permission to get an abortion. I was so proud of myself up until now, being the only member of my family back 3 generations to make it to 17 without having a child, and I don’t want to disappoint my parents by telling them. Both my parents have told me they don’t care if I drop out of school (which I did 6 months ago and got my GED), become an alcoholic, or get addicted to drugs as long as I don’t have a kid before I’m out of their house. After talking to my boyfriend about it as if it was a hypothetical situation, telling him I “would” want an abortion, he told me he would leave me if I killed his baby.. So I picked up smoking (weed and cigarettes), drinking, and exercising (all heavily) in hopes that I’ll have a miscarriage before this baby grows big enough for people to start noticing. I feel like this is my only choice to keep myself from being seen by my family as the failure everyone else in my life already sees me as, and the only way I can keep my life from falling apart right as it seems I’m finally getting everything together.