I am only happy because I know that no matter what happens I can kill myself. Surprisingly this makes me stronger. I can go though any bad experience and think well let’s just live another year and if it still s**** as hard as it does now I always have my escape plan. But then I think if I’m going to kill myself I might as well rob a bank because I might get away with it. This makes me laugh because I couldn’t see myself doing it and I keep on living and try to enjoy myself.