I masturbated and I used mind projection indicating to women at my job and otherwise that I’m a sissy boy who likes women to give me s******* dildos up my b******* and mouth while I wear g string p****** I lied I made s******* submissive noises and facial expressions I indicated to those women the look and stink of my b******* and that I only have a five inch p**** erect and I was homosexual bisexual a sissy boy feminine disgusting pathetic manipulative divisive lazy inferior anxious afraid worried paranoid I was angry disrespectful I was prideful selfish immature I passed judgment against others I complained I had resentment worldly sorrow I was stubborn hypocritical insensitive impersonal ungrateful uncaring unloving unmerciful ungodly I gossiped I was threatening I was self righteous I had a martyr like attitude I hardened my heart against God’s purpose for my life I had violent and suicidal thoughts I was opinionated blame shifting I took my frustrations out on others I was boastful I tried to convince others I’m something and someone I’m not