I have always been having s***** fantasies about black men but dismissed them. They keep resurfacing and I realized they are actually who I was meant to be. I’ve given lots of BJs but crave a full on intimate encounter with a black man. I worry I will really like it and am sure I will. Then I will have to admit I’m truly gay. I want to date black men. 60 YO and I realize I’m gay and into black men.