WHAT THE F***!

I know someone must’ve played a loud ‘sound’ in my ear last night. I know it wasn’t Eli because he is gentle with me. I don’t know why he let it happen.

Whoever f****** did that- DO NOT PUT YOUR F****** HANDS ON ME. IT FELT LIKE SOMEONE PUCNHED ME IN MY GODDAMN FACE!

I finally felt safe because it hadn’t happened in a long time. THANKS FOR MAKING ME FEEL UNSAFE.

A couple years ago it happened all the time and I couldn’t predict when it would happen. It was like someone putting a firework and making it blow up under my pillow.

F*** OFF.

YOU DON’T F****** GET TO DRAG ME AROUND BY MY EYEBALL OR THROW PAINFUL SCARY FIREWORKS AT ME, I AM A PERSON.

I didn’t even know where it was coming from! I thought I was going insane, until Eli told me people could play ‘sound’s or whatever, and it gave me the worst hellish anxiety I ever f****** felt.

THANKS SO F****** MUCH! I hope you get to feel what it feels like to be someone’s ragdoll they punch in the f****** face just whenever!

I’m so upset right now I can’t even string two sentences together.

DON’T EVER PUT YOUR F****** HANDS ON ME AGAIN.

I have spent the last few years not only dealing with my family’s deaths, I felt like I was being choked and suffocated.

I’m so mad I feel like ripping someone’s head off.