This life is so mundane and lame a**. I did what everybody else wanted and its as empty and meaningless as I had always assumed. Now I am in completely over my head and can’t get out. There is no return, no resolve, no reward, no one cares. I just hope I can raise her to be an independent adult. If I don’t screw that up I can bail once she is able to do that. Even if I spend the rest of my days alone it will be better than this. I will ride this out and do the right thing my parents did not. Just let me get my life back someday please.
