I am a married guy and have a close friend at work for the last few years considers me her “work husband” and she is divorced. An attractive 40 year old which is attracted to other women now.
We have conversations all the time about work drama mainly. She had a gift card for a local lunch establishment she wanted to use before it expired and asked about a “lunch date” and was the first time in probably 15 years of friendship we were ever alone together.
Before heading back, I suddenly had her massage my groin area casually. She said something like just curious. Then after all this time came personal oriented questions like if I ever had ED or performance problems which of course I never had.
Had she continued much longer she wouldn’t have asked. She went on to express after divorce some years earlier that even though she had been in numerous relationships with other women she had never been intimate with any of them beyond a kiss and hug. As I inquired why it was about a fear of a girlfriend spending the night in her bed with her teenagers at home. Even though they were aware of her gay attraction to females.
She went on to say she “loved herself” and could only go just so long without taking care of her needs. She asked if I ever had experienced anything with guys. I was finally comfortable enough to say yes. Something neither of my 2 wives or any girlfriend ever found out.
Not that it would ever happen again but as a young teenage boy. On a few occasions we helped each other out. First was an older neighbor that came to upstate NY from Colorado to spend the summer with his grandparents. At the time I didn’t realize he might have been gay. I never gave much thought he didn’t talk about girls. One day while out in one of our hang outs, he pulled my shorts open a bit and leaned over to take a look down without saying a word. Also then saying he was curious. He asked about the showers in gym class which we started in Jr high and about what some of the other boys looked like. I never should have mentioned that one day one of the other boys noticed our exchange student from Korea looked different. We gathered around comparing. The difference was we were circumcised and he wasn’t anddemonstrated retracting his little foreskin.
This led to when I masturbated last and he wanted to look again. At this point I had never discussed this with anyone and found him now holding mine which became erect instantly. No one else had ever touched it. I let him continue and suddenly it felt really warm and realized it was in his mouth. He said his friend in Colorado and he did that and guys did it too, and not just girls.
I did unzip him and felt him get erect which seemed ok at the time but never did much beyond that. In a year or so later my cousin and I masturbated together a few times also but as I got girlfriends all that stopped and was pretty much out of my mind. I guess maybe more of that goes on but is never openly discussed. Perhaps more accepted today than back then.