I may not speak up sometimes but I feel I get condemned if I don’t. I had lived here in a household for four months filled with contention from a Sister-in-law who is so toxic around me. My brother, her husband, is not home most of the time due to him working across the country and out of the days of the year he’s only home for 50 days. He helped bring me here and he and his wife welcomed me into their home, but four months later things have changed. I don’t get much sympathy from my own siblings in this case and I remembered back in May I got a new one torn by my older sister for being so rotten towards my little brother and his wife and she spewed some bad things towards our stepfather who was married to our mother for 34 years. My older brothers really don’t care much as to what’s going on with me so I’m been very been alone on this from the time I arrived here to Texas. Things aren’t going very well for me here and I would do anything to get out of a toxic environment here at this place and move on. I was always and far apart from my siblings for years and it was better that way and I long to return to that setting where I was safe and felt at peace in my life. Ever since my mom passed away a couple years ago I took care of her. I put part of my life and a career of my choice on hold to help provide 24/7 care along with help from my stepdad for her. None of my siblings ever took part or offered help to provide for Mom’s care by coming over from across the country to help her (Except for an older brother living in Australia since he was excused from this so he’s been exempt from this). The rest of my siblings never made any attempts to help out and when Mom received hospice care from home after she was going downhill with her health, one of my siblings asked if they could have a video chat with her and I said no. My mother had dementia and her mind wasn’t what it was anymore and I told all of them that she didn’t have a lot of time left and that was something that could not happen to the point. A week later, one of them asked again for a video chat with Mom and that was when I replied with bold letters NO CAN DO! I explained to all of them that a video chat or any type of chat was out of the question and that the next time they get a call from me is when I inform them that our mother passed away and she did on that Sunday morning December 22, 2022, two weeks before Christmas. My younger brother made it up for her Memorial service the filling month and my brother and his wife made it up from Australia three months later for her interment services when the cemetery was opened. Only my oldest sister and my oldest brother never bothered to come up to pay their final respects for our mother. You think my sister got so angry with me for being rotten towards my younger brother and his wife, well I been very angry with her and my oldest brother for not bothering to come up when they should have dropped everything to say their final goodbyes to our mother and now I have strained ties with three out of four siblings in my own family and we don’t get along or see eye to eye on things and do why bother with them? My strongest bond is with my stepdad and how much I miss him we were together when we took care of Mom and were together after she passed and my sister and my youngest brother wanted to talk trash about him. I don’t know but I am so ready to just leave everyone behind and move on with my life.
