I thought I was past sodomizing myself because a few months past since last doing it but yesterday I slipped bad. I went into a cornfield and was just going to get n*** and take a dump but I saw the ears of corn and I always wanted to try it. I got naked in the hot sun and grabbed an ear and picked it. I shucked it and then stripped away most of the corn. I spit all over it to lube it up then I pushed it into my b***. Then I got down and straddle it on the dirt and pushed it hard and deep into me over and over until I had to s***. Then I did and it was streaked in blood. I took a big dump then a little one and both were bloody as well as the s*** covered ear of corn. I had some paper towels so I wiped up and them I buried the s*** and hurled the ear and the green a few rows over. I’m very sick and very ashamed. Sorry God.