it feels strange, but i’ve grown to like sticking myself with needles. my veins, especially. i don’t know, it gives me a feeling of control over my own body that i didn’t have before and control over something i used to be so afraid of. just the idea of piercing my own vein would make me lightheaded and nauseous before, but now i like seeing my blood fill the barrel. it doesn’t hurt nearly as much as i thought it would. and the rush of dissociation from a hit of ketamine is a very interesting and intense sensation

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