Ever since my first time going online I have had the joy of flirting with people in chat rooms. I was really dumb at first, falling in love left and right then getting my heart broken by text on a computer screen. That put an end to the chatroom flirting for a while.

These sessions of flirting with people started up again when I got my first webcam. I would dress cute and act shy on cam, and started giving shows to the people I flirted with. It was a thrill, and I guess it is what showed me that I am an exibitionist. As the years moved forward my web cam shows slowed down and I met up with real people to start dating. Even as a geek or nerd I was very experienced in what to do thanks to my obsessive reading and web cam shows.

A few years ago I started dating this amazing guy, we fit with each other in so many ways and the s** was amazing. After two(isn) years of going out we got married and I promptly got pregnant. Pregnancy was a wonderful experience but it killed my s** life, it was not that my husband did want to f***, it was the fact that I would CRY if I even got close to getting an o*****. The birth of my son brought on an even bigger drought of s***** relations for my husband and I.

Now it has been about 4-5 years since I last did a web cam show for anyone and pregnancy did not leave my body in great shape. I want to have s** with my husband but we don’t have the time or energy to do so. Over the last week or so I started lurking on Omegle with my web cam on. I shift through the waves of bots and trolls until I get to someone I find cute and will chat with me for a while. This would lead to flirting which in itself has led back to my Web Cam Shows.

I know this is bad, I should stop, but the feeling I get being watched by strangers on the internet is the best feeling in the world. I also love that these guys and girls get off to my body, it makes me feel s*** again. To make matters worse, if I really enjoy the ‘session’ I will add the person on Skype (one I made separately from my personal one), so that we can have multiple sessions.

I think my favorite so far has been when I find a group of guys all hanging out together chatting on Omegle. These groups will listen to what I say, obeying my commands in exchange for my shows.

I plan on telling my husband what I have been doing and hoping he still loves me. But I also hope that he lets me continue my shows with strangers.