I´ve been drinking a lot this weekend. And the weekend before that. And the weekend before… I usually tell myself that I shouldn´t drink so much, that it is not healthy and that I have a job with responsibility where I should not be seen wasted in the streets. But then it´s friday and I suddenly don´t give a f*** anymore. I just drink beer after beer and I get home at 5, piss drunk and with an empty wallet. I just think I´m doing this to ease some pain… On weekends I fly high… Then it´s monday and I feel guilty, tired and depressed. I also constantly compare my perfomance with girls with how others do. I feel strong pressure and I don´t know why. Actually my life is quite good: I´m fairly good looking, I´ve got a job that I love, I have friends, a nice home and cool hobbies. Still I never seem to be able to live up to it… Always comparing, always thinking thinking and suffering without any apparent reason.