Last year I spent almost $5K cheating on my wife going to get happy ending massages and on OnlyFans. I opened a secret credit card to transfer some of the balances so she wouldn’t notice. Now we’re trying to figure out our housing situation after receiving a rent increase notice and I’m terrified she’s going to find out about what I did from a credit score pull or something else while we figure out what to do. I feel so ashamed for breaking her trust trying to fulfill some id fueled fantasy though I never had i********** with anyone else. On top of that, I feel stupid that I spent so much money on something so useless instead of something for both of us like a vacation or part of a house down payment. She was also recovering from breast reduction surgery at the time so I feel like an even bigger scumbag. I regret my decisions every day and feel immense guilt that is paralyzing. I want to be able to be honest but I know the truth will be devastating for her. I feel so bad for the pain I have and will cause.